just curious...hohoho....

xpaham...pe beza dua neh:

1) demokrasi...ciptaan orang amerika yg kapir...alasan menggunakan demokrasi...demokrasi xmemudaratkan dan kalau ia boleh digunakan untuk mengelak pemimpin yang zalim...why not...

2) civil law...ciptaan orang kapir gak...walaupun civil law xmemudaratkan, haram ikut..kite de hukum hudud....hukum hudud sebaik-baik hukum...

So bley ke kite amik satu dan tolak satu lagi....mcm hipokrit jer.....hohohohoho....

3) klu ikut hukum hudud...kalau kereta kena saman polis..or orang buang sampah merata-rata (seyes ramai orang Malaysia perangai jijik macam neh) camne hukumnye yer...(nih bukan buat lawak atau menganjing ye...aku memang curious nk tau)...arghhh...serabut...

4) and what is the punishment for corruption according to the Hudud law?...

ps: just read a website about how to deal with the corrupt leader...and here are the excerpt...

Fighting A Corrupt Muslim Ruler

If an Imam or Amir is corrupted he should first be given a call to submission in private, or possibly in public if his evil deeds were done in public. If he does not turn away from his evil deeds, he should be overthrown or removed from position. However, in the process of removing him from position, he should not be physically fought, such as waging war with weapons. This is because the ruler is still Muslim, and the Muslims are not to attack or kill another Muslim. If, however, the Muslim leader or ruler completely abandons his salaat, he nullifies his Islam and can be fought if necessary. (However, to prove this, it would take an Islamic court or similar situation in which the person could defend themselves against all accusations).  Umm Salamah (RA) narrated Rasulullah (SAW) said: “In the near future there will be Amirs (rulers) and you will like their good deeds and dislike their bad deeds. One who sees through their bad deeds (and tries to prevent their repetition by his hand or through his speech), is absolved from blame, but one who hates their bad deeds (in the heart of his heart, being unable to prevent their recurrence by his hand or his tongue), and is (also) safe (so far as Allah’s wrath is concerned). But one who approves of their bad deeds and imitates them is spiritually ruined.” People asked (Rasulullah (SAW)): “Shouldn’t we fight against them?” Rasulullah (SAW) replied: “No, as long as they say their prayers.” (Sahih Muslim)...

So the corrupt leader is not punishable by death...it's between him and Allah...the worst thing is to remove him from his position...

I believe this law is justifiable....so why I see many of the religious fanatics out there act like they know better....awkward isn't it?....nak bunuh lah...nak ludah la...ewwww...if you really want Hudud law to be implemented...why don't you start acting like it is already implemented and show some good behaviour like how the hudud law practitioners should be....jangan asik tgk porn n masturbate  pastu cakap pasal agama....keji tu....

A day at the lion city...

When i first step my feet at the woodland immigration center..I have a little argument with the officer...not really an argument...it just me trying to correct her pronunciation cost me to be treated like a drug mule...I'm not really familiar with Singlish though I'm a big fan of Phua Chu Kang...doesn't mean I can understand every word he says...the story goes like this...when i gave her my passport with the Information form i need to fill before entering Singapore...then she said "write down you vekel number please." dumbfounded..and thinking though I am English literate.there might be some word i just didn't know..humbly..I ask her to repeat her instruction...annoyed...she says the exact same sentence once again...and I still not get it...then she probably lost her patience and she might be thinking that I have bad command in English...she pointing harshly to some column i left blank in the form...and I'm amazed at how the fuck she can be an immigration officer...saying as loud as I can... I said while emphasizing the sounds produced by the word "owh....VE-HI-CLE..."..and seeing my face gives away how amused I am at correcting her pronunciation so with her "i'm constipating" face ..she starts being a bitch and asking me to fill the column...so i told her that I took the bus to come here..then she said....so write the bus number...dafuq....my fault for being so ignorant about the importance of having to remember my bus number....i look at the bus ticket that I hold and ask her nicely..."So..which one is the bus number then?"...She sigh as if I'm really stupid...and said...just write CW1 bla bla...fuck you...you can just tell me earlier without having me to make a fool of myself by scanning trough the ticket...and with a smug on her face...she asks "first time here?" I reply..."yup"...then show me your IC...."what now you need my ic?"...she is being a total bitch...I can't stand it anymore..so I say while looking through my purse for the IC..."So where the fuck is my IC now...biatch biatch biatch" hohoho..she sure doesn't understand what biatch is....after looking at my IC with barely one eye...she said.."ok,you may go"...thinking that this is the normal procedure and I'm just overreacted...then I saw all my friends has finished with the procedure even faster and they ask me what's wrong...I told them what happened...and they said...we left the column blank and nothing happened...and they didn't even want to see our IC....OMG I knew it...she just want to get even with me for correcting her...then we use the GPS to find the ZAM ZAM restaurant...we manage to find the place although the Guna Pun Sesat that i bring doesn't help much...it's quite cloudy..so it's kinda hard to get the satellite signal. Reaching there, I'm looking forward to eat the murtabak singapore...the restaurant is quite crowded with people...and we are really hungry due to the walk...waited for more than half an hour...i still didn't get my Milo Dinasour....whereas the other couple beside us who came later than us...got all their drinks before us....nearly one hour..no sign of my drinks..and not even the single hint of the food we ordered will arrive soon..and I realize...I'm not gonna waste my time waiting when I can utilize the time wasted to explore the city...so we canceled the order and get out of there only to realize...there is another branch which is less crowded than the previous....at the same side of the road...but being irrationally hungry and i don't want to fall for the same trick twice...i choose to eat at another restaurant...a bit expensive but the service is way better.....after eating and doing sight seeing we took the MRT to Marina bay...quite a nice hangout spot for yuppies...the journey with the MRT is quite nice...it works efficiently and we get to have our one dollar back...for every ticket we purchased, there will be a one dollar deposit...n you can have the deposit back after you return the ticket....seriously i did return the ticket not so much because I want my 1 dollar back..but because it amuses me.....Marina bay sand is a big area designed for the rich to spend..i do think it is even bigger than Pavillion..correct me if I'm wrong..coz the last time I check..I'm not one of the elites who shop there...so i have less knowledge about exclusive shopping places..but it's not a crime to window shop..and window shopping is enough to make me feel better....After spending some time there, we moved to Orchard Road....or so called the lion city Sg Wang....after some shopping...we go back to Arab street to fill our tummy with the so called best murtabak in Singapore...at the other branch...and it is not disappointing...it tasted quite good and affordable..8 dollar for the large sized murtabak to be eaten by four....so the journey is completed...n i feel satisfied....

Things i learnt from this visit.....most of the time the public transport such as MRT and bus users have their focus on the their I-phone and their I-pad....it shatters my perception about Singaporean being the south east asia japanese....most of them watch video with those...few or none i see reading something..or they might be reading e-book...but must have overlooked it...it makes me thing about generation Y...the generation who's at the receiving end.....when life outside the door doesn't mean much than life inside the tiny boxes...the tiny boxes provide more exposure and information more than a real life could give...and I start to feel overwhelmingly claustrophobic...my friends said that a trip to Singapore reminds them of the movie "In time" where everyone is in a hurry...even the Singaporean drivers drive like they can't hold their pee anymore.screw the speed limit...screw the no left turn sign,.no wonder when they cross the border all hell broke lose...I can bet those who dare to jaywalk will find themselves in the hospital bed sooner than they expected....i see some citizen break the rules although there is possibility of being fined...i see some litters hidden beneath some crook and corner...after all...they just human...they are not a robot designed to function properly as the government wants them to be.....overall...it's a good experience...many things learnt...many things discovered...it is indeed a good journey...

I'm a muslim just like you...but each of us has different views...

You ask me why I didn't put my religion of my FB...you ask me am I ashamed of my religion....and i would say it's not for you to judge...coz between me and God...though I might not be the pious type...I did believe Allah exist...and I certainly knows Allah is the most merciful...but knowing that even being Muslim.. people still killing their brothers, abusing the law and make them ridiculous, act holier than thou in the name of god when everybody knows they are liars... Islam has become another mainstraim religion like the others. i believe Allah give me brain to think...although i did not utilize it well..coz sometimes I act shameless, unscared of the almighty...coz to err is human and to forgive is God.....i have darker side of me that I'm aware of it's existence...and I keep questioning myself when would I get the light? When would I get to believe without having a doubt...coz being hypocrite and follow the masses is easy...it makes your life easier....although your heart knows how messed up it is to wake up knowing that you have to lie as if you understand everything though you don't...i still keep asking why? and some religious people says that too much questioning is the root of the devil just like the israel nation used to keep questioning Moses why for everything. But if you don't understand it,how can you start believing???
So if being rebellious and deny the rules imposed on me cost me a banishment from society..so be it....coz I know deep inside I'm a muslim, i utter the syahadah....and Allah knows that...I still looking for the light...though I know I'm the lucky one coz I was born a Muslim...but the Nurr...didn't come handy in a package when I was born....I know too much but I understand too little..and everyone is so keen to judge, some look forward to give lectures....but few try to understand and able to erase the doubt I have in mind...coz being a muslim doesn't stop you from being a moron...but you can easily use religion as the barricade to save you from acting like a mindless jerk....I know there is more to life than this...but i still can't find my peace...so can you please for a while be a good muslim and stop judging me....coz that's not what a good muslim does to the lost soul...good muslim empathize with them and try as best as they could to show good moral behaviour and persuade people that Islam is the most beautiful thing...so disillusion people like me will start believing again...tq...

kenape aku speaking english? (haha....sekali rojak aku bg...maklumlah...ade yg xphm klu aku tulis english sepenuhnye)

ade orang kate....menyampah lak amy neh asik speaking je.....padahal hidung penyek je.....perasan omputih....kalau nk jawapan kerek dari aku...aku jawab camni...ade aku kisah....ko jeles kan xpandai speaking...cakap omputih tergagap2...so ko menyampahlah aku speaking.....

tp kalau cara berhemahnye aku kata macam neh....aku speaking sebab itu kerja aku...aku ajar budak bi...bayangkan kalau aku xpractise english aku....camne aku nak masuk kelas and ajar budak2 bahasa inggeris....amanah tu.....aku cikgu bi....so grammar kena jaga,pronounciation kene jaga..it's the same dgn cikgu bm.imagine tetibe cikgu yg ajar bm...masuk kelas tapi cakap bahasa pasar....wak lu sane....ade mak kisah sini....xbley terima kan....budak2 mesti cakap...pe cikgu neh...cakap mcm budak ribena...macam tu la gak cikgu bi....klu tetibe masuk kelas tp speaking ala2 go straight don't belok2....murid2 pun xpercaya kt cikgu......

ade pe aku guna bahasa melayu sebagai medium....bukan le bodoh sangat or belagak sangat sampai xrela guna bahasa melayu....tp bilingual individual biasenye buat code switching....sebab vocab list dalam kepala otak dah bercampur.....so main tangkap mane yg ingat je......so kadang2 tu yg jd rojak tu...buka sengaja...n bukan xrespect bahasa melayu...tp dah terbiasa....habit formation...mcm ustazah kt sekolah aku dulu..kadang melatah keluar bahasa arab..marah budak pun dalam bahasa arab la....tu baru bilingual...cube yg multilingual...lg susah nk trace vocab list.....bab2 neh orang unilingual memang rase xbest....coz diorg xpaham.....kerana mereka cuma tahu satu bahasa...n bila orang xguna bahasa yg dia tahu....mulalah tuduh macam2...mulalah kate eleh minah ni...budget best lak nak speaking2...pastu perli2...omputih la sangat...bahasa kafirun tu ko sanjung2....pe kate belajar...bukan susah...xyah la nk judge org lupe diri ke...ape ke.....xdela ko lari sebatu bile tourist tanye direction......xdela nnt ko melolong bile anak2 ko xbley compete dgn kawan2 bilingual n multilingual diorg....pastu salahkan sistem pendidikan bile anak xachieve......suroh mansuh program tu...program neh....sedangkan anak orang lain...mencanak2 naik keputusannya....

ingatlah, bahasa itu kuasa...bahasa itu jambatan untuk ke dunia luar.....ketaksuban dengan bahasa sendiri dan memperlekehkan bahasa lain sama macam duduk bawah tempurung....memang selesa dalam tu....tapi sampai bila...org luar ramai belajar bahasa melayu supaya boleh berkomunikasi dengan baik...sebab diorang tahu kepentingan belajar bahasa lain selain bahasa sendiri....kita pula dok bangga2 omputih tu cakap bahasa melayu la....duhhhh.....

Bahasa melayu tu bagus dan cantik...tp xde ape yang sempurna di dunia ni.....cube tanya penggiat bahasa melayu sendiri.....adakah dia unilinggual or bilinggual or multilinggual.....cube tanye a samad said...die pandai speaking orang putih x? prof ungku aziz...mencintai bahasa dan menguasai bahasa tu xsama....lain sama sekali....bak kata picasso....learn the rules before breaking it.......you blajar pandai2 sampai lebam...baru pk....nk guna atau x....nk ikut atau x....sekurang2nya kita ada pilihan....daripada xtau langsung...pastu dok pandang2 select kt orang....not nice....

So...lu pikirla sendri......

things i learn from my furry housemates....(more like my furry bosses)

My shiny black sweetheart.....Tam tam.

This is Tam Tam.....he might look scary...but underneath he is the most largehearted creature that i knew....unlike other male cats who treats stranger kittens with defiance and being violent.. Tam Tam loves to play with them...give them his food..sleep with them..and sometimes let them play on him....and this cat thinks that every people is a good person....he is not scared of people and he will go running to people to greet them....his naive attitude make me thinks that sometimes in life...though it's hard....we must believe in GOOD.....Tam Tam is also softhearted and love me the most...if i have to go somewhere and leave him with my sister....he refuses to eat anything.....sometimes it goes on for three or four days....he makes me believe that there is a genuine love in this world....and the fact that my cat misses that much makes me happy......the best part about him...he is my manual alarm clock.....every morning at 5.30 am sharp....he always make sure to wake me up.......using his wet nose to tickle me......even on SUNDAY.....Damn!!!!......coz 5.30 am is their breakfast time.....

My stripy hero...Mon Mon

Currently he is suffering from penyakit batu karang.....so he has problem to urinate.....sometimes due to the pain he often resorts to urinate on something soft and cool...like worn clothes, mattress, pillow, blanket and sometimes newspapers...it's kinda hard at first.....coz you have to make sure that there is no clothing or anything like that left unattended on the floor. and to keep the blanket, pillow and mattress in the closet or in the closed room after using them....so...bit by bit...i become quite organized..if before..i never bother to tidy up the bed after waking up...lately...i tidy them up...and put them in the room before going off to school..since i live alone...i usually sleep in front of the tv in the living room..my bed in the bedroom is just for display purposes.....Then i teach him to pee in the toilet....since he cannot use the litter due to infection.....it's takes a lot of effort for my part.....luckily..now he's toilet trained....but i still have to clean up the mess in the toilet....the down part of having a pet...my sis once asked me "if you keep cleaning his poop everyday...how do you able to eat? why don't you let him die naturally...why waste money on medication and stuff".....so i question her back "how can you eat if you keep cleaning your baby's poop everyday? why do you take her to the clinic when she's sick?"....it's the same rule....i raise him since he was little...i'm not going to abandon him just because he is sick.....you don't abandon something you love no matter how hard it is....Mon Mon has his good side too....he's the patient of them all....during the meals...although he is hungry, he always wait for Tam Tam and Cen Cen to finish eating first....he will wait patiently while looking at the other two eating.... usually when feeding them biscuits...i give them separate bowl....so they can eat comfortably......but if there are some special treats...means they have to share.....so Mon Mon will sit and wait for the two to finish eating....

pics of them eating together.......

the cheeky princess Cen Cen

This cheeky brat always makes my day...being the only girl, she is a bit naughty and love to explore new things....do not ever leave any thing open such as closet, drawer, bag...coz she will get in there and occupy the place like nobody business....she is the cleverest of the three....My mom said she does act like me....she does have my traits in her...my bitchiness...my nonchalant attitude, my ade aku kisah attitude and my snobbish  towards people attitude.....unlike Tam Tam who love people...cen cen does not fond of people....but whenever i got sick....she will sit beside me watching me with her puzzled face...as if trying to ask me what can she do to ease my pain.....when the pain getting real bad and i cried several times in front of her,she seems affected by it.....she is sensitive to emotion around her......and try to comfort me as best as she could by snuggling to me....though she may look unaffected but she is affected...only she doesn't show it much....

Although sometimes it's hard to make people understand how we feel towards our pets....but eventually they will see...keeping pets is not a waste of time....keeping pets change me...for better or worse....i did change.....i become more patient, i become more responsible, i learn to commit.....i learn to organize things...i do lots of cleaning than i normally do......though not much...but i believe something inside me has change....so love your pet.....coz they love you too....as long as you feed them....;p

My darlings at the moment......

ulama vs pemimpin

Yep....aku nih bukan golongan orang alim dan xde kepentingan dalam mana2 parti politik...tapi aku sangat2 ingin mencurahkan pendapat aku yang x seberapa ni tentang isu ini.....Kat Malaysia nih....para ulama berlumba-lumba nak jd pemimpin....aku teringat kisah2 yang aku baca dulu...bila ulama sampai di ugut bunuh kerana xmahu mengisi jawatan dalam kerajaan....sgt2 ironi dengan apa yang berlaku sekarang.....Ulama dahulu sangat berani menegur kepincangan pemimpin tetapi sangat takut untuk jadi pemimpin kerana diorang tahu...yang tugas pemimpin itu sangat berat.....cukuplah sekadar menegur cacat cela supaya boleh dibaiki kecelaannya....Ulama zaman sekarang ini pula berfikiran lain..."kalau kerajaan xbetul..biar aku je yang jadi pemimpin....aku lebih layak..."

Ye..memang pada zaman dahulu segala ceramah, segala majlis ilmu, segala mesyuarat pimpinan, mesyuarat ekonomi di buat di masjid....masjid dan surau lah pusat ekonomi dan informasi orang2 islam.....dan masa berlalu....pemimpin mula bermesyuarat di balai rong seri dgn pegawai2 dan penasihat2 agama mereka....masjid masih lagi pusat komuniti...tetapi hal2 ekonomi, penguatkuasaan undang-undang dan pentadbiran sudah pindah ke istana.....kenapa???? selepas nabi wafat...penggantinya adalah sahabat2 baginda...bila kebanyakannya sudah tiada....umat berpecah....dalam masa xsampai suku abad..inikan kita yang sudah 1 kurun lebih berlalu selepas kewafatan nabi..sedangkan saidina Osman Al-Affan pun kena assasinate....pewaris2 darah daging nabi menerima nasib yang sama....selepas itu bermula la pemerintahan monarki dalam islam dari keturunan bani Abas hingga rampasan kuasa ke keturunan bani Muawiyah...dan sampai ke kegemilangan turki uthmaniah (ottoman)...setandingkah mereka ini dengan nabi? tentu tidak...tetapi jahat kah mereka ini atau tidak layakkah mereka memimpin rakyat? tidak semua.....ada antara khalifah ini yang memang baik dan adil walaupun bukan dari darah daging ulama....

Ulama dulu perlu di cari untuk mendapat tunjuk ajar...ada sesetengahnya duduk bersembunyi jauh dari masyarakat....memberi ilmu pada orang yang mecari....ulama sekarang....walaupun xsemua begitu , xpayah kita nk cari...dia yang ligat mencari pengikut... semakin tinggi ilmu agama, semakin hebat godaan syaitan terhadap diri mereka...sampai ada yang merasa mereka lah yang terbaik, terpuji dan dicintai tuhan. Orang yang tidak sealiran dilaknati tuhan...Apa beza ulama2 ini dengan Pope dan Rabbi???..Riak dan takbur kerana rasa mereka insan disayangi tuhan dan agama mereka yang terbaik. Ulama dulu menegur pemimpin....halus bahasanya....dalam maksudnya.....tegurnya secara berdepan...tidak di belakang, tidak di dalam blog, tidak di dalam majlis ilmu, sebab sejahat2 pemimpin itu, maruah mereka harus di jaga....lagipun bercerita tentang kesalahan pemimpin n menyampaikan cerita keburukan pemimpin kepada rakyat secara terang-terangan sama je seperti mengumpat...perangai munafiq.....mcm ..abdullah bin Ubai http://www.pinggiranusj.net/t305-awasi-jebak-dari-keturunan-abdullah-bin-ubai-bin-salul......

Ramai ulama yang baik dan dihormati ada dekat Malaysia ni, yang berani, yang cerdik dan berseni kata-katanya.....yang tinggi ilmu agama nya..yang bertauliah....ulama ini yang patut kita sanjung, kita ikut...ulama ini tak akan meminta wang dari kita, tidak meminta kita bersangka buruk pada orang lain...dan tidak menyesatkan kita.Janganlah kita cepat terpedaya dengan ulama segera yang datangnya bersaa pakej parti politik ataupun...ajaran2 yg bertentang dengan ajaran2 yang ada sekarang.....selagi perkara itu tidak memudaratkan...ikut lah....xmati kalau kita x jadi syiah....kita tetap orang islam....

Pemimpin yg jahat itu memanglah nampak jahatnya...ulama yang jahat lebih berbahaya...umpama api dalam sekam....hidup jangan terlalu taksub....

Perbincangan yang bermakna....

Masa aku kat U dulu, aku paling suka bila lecturer wat group discussion...especially if dapat reading materials and derives ko punye understanding from dat....yang pastinya, each person will come out with different interpretation....
lecturer favourite aku adela miss Ong Siaw Kim, Miss Ng Siew mei, Dr Anuar, Mr Lim n Prof Moses...
Miss Ong adelah seorg yg sgt skema dan ketat rules grammarnye selain mempunyai penglihatan yg amat tajam....so klu aku main cucuk2 dgn melissa kat blakang kelas...die bley tahu jenama pen ape yg aku gunakan nk cucuk Melissa tu...tp dgn die ni aku belajar 1 important lesson, you have to learn the rule before you can break it...mcm blajar grammar...ko kena ikut bulat2 beb ape yg ade dlm buku....and bile ko ase dah pro...bley le ko come out the creative license ko utk goreng2 cerita best utk wat journal ke, short story ke, novel ke...so klu ko nk mendalami literature...ko kena la blajar grammar dulu....basic rules...n die suke tembak org jawab soalan die...klu ko xprepare...bersedia utk terjun luar tingkap...so aku kena sentiasa bersiap sedia memberi jawapan dgn reason yg munasabah klu jawapan aku salah.....
Miss Ng plak ajar aku cara nak detect fallacy....kire ape yg die ajar tu jd mantra aku sampai skang...slippery slope, red herring, symphaty appeal, bandwagon, overgeneralisation , personal attack, straw man bla bla bla....adalah element yg masih aku praktikkan bile membaca reading material....so everytime dpt reading material, die akan tanya, tanya, dan tanya lagi....n kitorg akan jawab, jawab dan jawab ag...smpila dpt conclusion yg munasab dan boleh dipakai...
Dr Anuar lak...seorg lecturer yg sgt cool....die sgt observant and sukakan inovasi.....tp klu die ase xbest...die hentam juge....but teguran die xwat aku down...coz cara die kritik sgt subtle...instead of poiting out weaknesess...he gives suggestion for improvement...bile aku pilih lagu My Way (Frank Sinatra) utk budak2, die suro aku tukar coz xsesuai...it might be inspiring n all...but lagu My Way tu utk org yg dah tua...yg umur nak ujung2 dah....n aku accept his critict kerana cara dia yg subtle...n still cakap akunye presentation OK....
Mr Lim...adelah lecturer paling faveret aku....die mmg xskema, hobi die adelah tido time kitorg wat presentation...tp aku xsalahkan die pun...coz mase aku blajar Issuess in science teaching dgn die, classmate aku bantai pakat buat 50+ slide utk powerpoint presentation...kadang2...dgn aku skali pun join tido...slide show terbanyak aku pun masih di bawah 30.aku tau mesti ramai akan cakap...gile bodoh ape wat slide show banyak gitew....tapi itu semua atas dasar creativity n knowledge input yg nak disampaikan...n one thing about my science classmate...most of them don't talk rubbish...or copy n paste dari internet....most of them know what they are talking about...klu x, kena belasah le dgn mr Lim kalau xdapat jawab soalan die. lagi satu perangai Mr Lim...klu die xtido..die suka menyampuk....walaupun die suke minum teh tarik time kelas....n masuk klas lambat...kalau ko salah bagi fact...ko kena ceramah dgn die...dun pray pray....pronunciation pun kena jaga...salah sebut...terus die betulkan....but the best part about his class....adelah discussion after presentation....normally aku memang kuar jap g beli milo ais kat kafe time nih...time nih...die akan point out sesuatu issue n open discussion...trust me...klu klas nih tiga jam...cuma ade 1 jam utk presentation dan yg selebihnya discussion..(klu ikut schedule awal bley wat sampai 5 presentation) .klu aku xterlalu mengantuk...aku biasenye aku join discussion...well...time neh mmg best gile....mostly classmate aku akan tak this opportunity utk luahkan view diorg...this side or other side or both side....tanpa prejudice...kdg2 sampai perkara yg absurd pun bley keluar..sampai mulut ko asik ternganga..xberkesempatan nak tutup...contohnye...seorg classmate aku yg sgt taksub dgn pegangan jehovahnye...yg tidak membenarkan pengikut pegangan tu menderma darah....mengeluarkan latest finding tentang penciptaan darah palsu sebagai alternative derma darah....or seorg yg lagi pula mengeluarkan kenyataan homosexuality itu sebenarnya bukan kecenderungan seks tetapi part of mental illness (which is true) wlupun org xbley nk terima kenyataan...something out of the norm in not normal (if you can't accept schizophrenia as normal...why the double-standard?) or debate about theory of evolution vs pro creation, about the creation of technology..sape org pertama cipta kapal terbang? are u sure it's wright brothers?....n many more...
Last skali, subject yg aku suka..future English...by Prof Moses...Superb...he's actually clueless with our ability to goreng and menipu die kaw2...kekuatan batch aku tidak terletak pada keskemaan kami....cakap pasal skema...kami memang hancur lebur....tp kekuatan kami adalah pada getting the jobs done..wlupun ade loophole kat situ...n kitorg pun mmg agak pemalas orgnya...tp dgn berkat didikan lecturer2 kitorg sebelum nih...menyebabkan bakat menggoreng itu keluar seperti air dari mulut kitorang...we can make out gold comes from shit...we can make a piece of KFC phamplet yg asalnya nak usha ape nk g makan jap ag kat KFC as an important article in the discussion about Global media.....Yes we can...bak kempen Barrack Obama....Prof Moses...though how oblivious he is with his surrounding...but when he open his mouth...he never cease to amaze me...suke bercakap tentang daily experience n contact dgn surrounding die...n aku xrase bosan pun...walaupun kdg2 aku suke merepek dalam kelas die...n kadang2 aku tido...kalau awal pagi je la...kelas die asik pukul 8 je dulu...tension I...dah la nak parking kat UM tu seksa gile...
N lepas aku kerja ni, aku sangat rindu moment2 berdiskusi dgn kawan2...xsemestinya sebulu....or sependapat..but dgn discussion yg sihat dan xberat sebelah (melihat dari segala aspek, bukan mengikut kuantiti penyokong, bukan mengikut emosi semasa, but berdasarkan pandangan dari mata seorang individual yg berbeza berdasarkan fakta yg tersedia)....we come to the conclusion....that's why...klu nk wat assignment, selalula bg member bace draft kamu...supaya klu ade proofreader....kita bley tahu ape pendapat org lain tentang hasil kerja kita...
Dah kerja ni, aku sentiasa dalam dilema utk bertanya...aku nih jenis xpaham...aku akan tanya lebih2 sampai lebam...but budaya tempat kerja aku jenis...aku bg tau sekali..pastu pandai2 kau la...so bile aku screw up dlm kerja aku...teruk la aku kena hentam...walaupun kerja yg aku buat xde kena-mengena dgn tugas aku mengajar anak bangsa...contohnye...buat pamplet utk hari guru, hari kantin, hari kanak-kanak, surat jemput VIP itu, VIP ini...minit mesyuarat...bla bla bla.....aku rase malu asik nk singgah meja cikgu BM tanye die betul x ayat aku nih, formal ke x bahasa yang aku guna ni.....n then org atasan aku yg trusting at d same time kurang kebertanggungjawaban...etc...aku bg ketua aku utk proofread report, aku bg assisstant die skali drafting....sume kate ok...aku pun print n edar...pastu kena bancuh....psl ade error...ade yg xtulis nama bapak...n trus cakap aku xcompetent n bodo sombong....yg ketua kt atas aku yg sepatutnye proofread n edit kerja aku buat don't know n suro aku jgn buat kesilapan yg sama lagi.....dun...baik aku xyh wat draft lain kali...inilah jadinya bila xde perbincangan yg bermakna.
Bila time meeting, aku sgt suka bila ada suara2 yg question authority...wlupun hakikatnye diorg pun sama 2x5...tp kat situ kita bley nampak...ada keseimbangan dalam penyampaian dan pengendalian sesuatu isu...mesyuarat adalah medan yg sesuai utk meluahkan rasa tak puas hati at the same time juga medan yg digunakan utk membela diri....di situ perbincangan yg bermakna berlaku....
Perbincangan yg bermakna itu penting bg melahirkan generasi yg faham dan tahu apa yg patut kita tahu dan bukan tahu apa yang kita mahu or org lain mahu kita tahu....semua perkara kat dunia ni bukan setakat black vs white or good vs evil...byk gray area...byk cause n effect yg perlu difahami dan diambil kira...so kekurangan perbincangan yg bermakna boleh menyebabkan kedangkalan otak at the same time, kita akan rasa kita sentiasa betul walaupun kita salah...n kita akan berfikir dan bertindak mengikut emosi.....trust me, the most beautiful thing about Shakespeare is not his work of art...but his way of doing the arts....he left it to us to interpret it and to judge....