Anwar Ibrahim, IMF and Asian Financial Crisis...

It's been a long time since I've written anything in this blog....but lately, I feel the urge to post something related to Anwar Ibrahim....but I won't talk about him regarding his sex scandal or personal life...I just want to point out certain stuff based on paperworks and quotations from the people related closely to economic field.....

first,I would present this excerpt written by the author Nile Bowie (2013) (a Russian political analyst) taken from his article about Anwar Ibrahim, after he was sacked by Dr.M.

"During his political tenure, Anwar was sacked for implementing IMF austerity measures while Mahathir spearheaded Malaysia’s recovery from the 1997 Asian financial crisis through currency controls and protectionist measures. After his political fall, he served as Chairman of the Development Committee of the World Bank and IMF in 1998, and later chaired the Washington-based Foundation for the Future, a US-funded think-tank established by Elizabeth Cheney, the daughter of the former US Vice President. Anwar enraged many in Muslim-majority Malaysia when he stated that he would support a policy to protect the security of Israel in an interview with the Wall Street Journal – a stark contrast to the ruling coalitions’ firm stance in support of Palestine. Anwar’s unique credentials and close ties to the US political and financial establishment make him undeniably preferred in Washington"

Nile  Bowie

Noticed that I highlight the part that he is working with IMF...It gives the impression that he's doing a good job....he makes us proud right....

So what does the Chairman of the Development Committee of the World Bank and IMF do?

"The Committee's mandate is to advise the Boards of Governors of the Bank and the Fund on critical development issues and on the financial resources required to promote economic development in developing countries. Over the years, the Committee has interpreted this mandate to include trade and global environmental issues in addition to traditional development matters."

http://web.worldbank.org

In other word, they advise the Bank and the Fund regarding the conditions that borrower countries had to abide in exchange for the loan....this also include the governance aspect and sovereignty of the country....

Martin Feldstein (1998) (  Professor of Economics at Harvard University and President of the National Bureau of Economic Research) wrote 

"But the IMF's role in Thailand and Indonesia went far beyond the role that it played in Latin America. Instead of relying on private banks and serving primarily as a monitor of performance, the IMF took the lead in providing credit. In exchange, it has imposed programs requiring governments to reform their financial institutions and to make substantial changes in their economic structures and political behavior."

Now another excerpt from Pradumna B. Rana, (2012) ( an associate professor in Nanyang University, Singapore) about the root cause of Asian Financial Crisis.


"The root cause of the Asian crisis was the weaknesses of domestic banking sectors, which had recently been liberalised and encouraged to borrow from abroad.
 In such a crisis, the appropriate remedy would have been to inject liquidity in the economy through easier monetary and financial policies – exactly the opposite of what the IMF did, at least initially"

And now the excerpt taken from Paul Krugman's (1998)( an economist expert, professor at Princeton university and a winner for Nobel Memorial Prize in Economic Sciences) paperwork about IMF failure to remedy Asian Financial Crisis

"Macroeconomic stabilisation prescribed by the IMF not only failed to address the root cause of the crisis but, also pushed the countries into deep recessions"

C. Randall Henning and Mohsin S. Khan (2011) (C. Randall Henning, visiting fellow, has been associated with the Institute since 1986. He is Professor of International Economic Relations at the School of International Service, American University. Mohsin S. Khan has been a senior fellow at the Peterson Institute for International Economics.)  wrote in their journal

  “Asian countries were convinced that the Fund misdiagnosed the problems the countries were facing and imposed excessively harsh and inappropriate conditions for the financing it was providing. Despite the fact that the Fund later on acknowledged the mistakes is has made during the Asian financial crisis, and changed its views, the damage had been done and the mistrust of the Fund by the Asian countries lingered”.

The last one is the excerpt from the article written by Joseph Stiglitz (2000) (the Chief Economist at the World Bank during the crisis)

“IMF experts believe that they are brighter, more educated, and less politically motivated than the economists in the countries they visit.  In fact,…. the IMF staff….frequently consists of third-rank students from first-rate universities….Quite frankly, a student who turned in the IMF’s answer to the test questions “What should be the fiscal stance of Thailand, facing an economic downturn?” would have gotten an F.”

I'm sure many of you would ask....what does all these has something to do with Anwar Ibrahim...to put it simply Anwar Ibrahim is part of the team...IMF made the financial crisis in Asia becoming worse than it already was...

Here is the timeline of Asia (plus Russia + Brazil) financial crisis...
http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/pages/frontline/shows/crash/etc/cron.html

In Malaysia, back in 1998...the interest rate for the loan imposed by the bank was 14% minimum...many people were out of job, the unemployment rate spiked....many local company had to default and foreign company pack their stuff and run from Malaysia....life was hard....but thanks to the Dr.Evil, we were not desperate enough to beg for IMF mercy....

If you are willing to look the other way about Anwar's personal life....it's up to you...but if you turn a blind eye towards his affiliation with IMF back then, and how he also contributed to the plunging of Indonesia, Thailand and Philippines economy and trust him to run this country....good luck....may we be prosper as US would be in 20 years to come....

it's been a long time....

I've been abandoning this blog for a while....i don't know why...perhaps lately I'm more focused of personal things so I tend to write in my other blog...or perhaps..I realise that...I'm not mature enough to talk about certain issues...or I simply don't have enough patience to entertain bullshit from other people...because of my remarks...somewhere along the line...there are people that are actually butthurted because of my comment although i have no intention to focus on them....as if i care about their life...as much as they care to read about my blog and later verbally attacking me...
I've been having the time of my life now....I always wanted to be a political analyst or the trade analyst...and my graduate studies allow me to do just that...I always make sure i take no sides, and try to be as natural as possible...but sometimes due to the personal bias, and my limitation of in depth knowledge of certain issues, it's kinda hard to be reasonable....I am in the process of rationalising my thought and gain as much knowledge as I can before commenting on certain issues...the last thing I want...is to produce shallow argument...so that's the reason why I temporary stop writing in this blog...
As a government servant myself, I can't help but to be loyal to the government...since I've made an oath "saya yang menurut perintah". Although there are weaknesses in the system, but to fully condemn the whole system as corrupt is absurd or irrelevant...that's why I tend to be defensive when people start condemning the civil servants...life as a civil servant is not only about bonuses and the easiness of getting a loan...we are facing shitty things too...life is not a bed of roses..among the civil servants themselves, there are always good fruits and rotten fruits...nobody is perfect...
I believe, there is no such things as bad policy, it's always the matter of implementation...it's important for you not to rely or to be dependent on others. You have to take the initiative to sort things out so that it's easier for to work in any type of environment. I do whine a lot from time to time, since I am a human. Of course I would complain when I'm being overworked by my superior...but aside from whining...I do learn a valuable lesson from it....you can whine all you want...but things will never change unless you change the way you look at things.
Life is unfair, the sooner we accept it, the better. The sooner you adjust with your current situation, the better. Sometimes, i do find things as burdensome that I complaint about it...but later, learning things the hard way...I become more appreciative and thankful because I manage to go through and overcome the challenges thrown my way..avoiding and running away from the problem won't help solving it...
Looking back, working as a civil servant somehow help refining my characters. I do have my weaknesses.  Sometimes I act so shallow, sometimes i do think like a bimbo, I am selfish in nature, and my way of thinking are somewhat retarded, and I am so tactless in my words...
I still have this characteristics in me until now, but the nature of my work, the code of conduct that i have to follow has somehow restrain this dark side of me from coming out...although most of the times, it manages to seeped out from the shell....but then again, worse come to worse...we always have to remember...respect others in order to be respected....apologise when you did wrong...or when you don't agree with something, instead of telling them straight to their face about your dissatisfaction, always be diplomatic about it...
There are times, when someone or something can be so annoying, I am myself an annoying person. But understanding their nature, and why they act certain way, we can be more acceptance towards other people.  People are varied, and that's what makes life more interesting.....we all have our part to play, and our values, the way we look at things, our defence mechanism might differ from each other...but we do have our common goal....and being a civil servant help me understand...life is not always black and white. People will talk behind your back, will stab you at the back, will make you the scapegoat, will dump all the shits on you...but once we stop having the victim mentality, we can see...these trivial things, in the long run...they don't matter....what matter is, how you as a person overcome things like these.

a conversation exchange wit foreign friend about my country...Malaysia.......

Foreign friend: I watched the news on tv....something about the protest...in your country...you join?

me: nope.

Foreign friend: Why, I thought they fight for freedom....just like what happen in Egypt...you know the Arab Spring

me: I don't think so...it's more like occupy wall street....

Foreign friend: No offence...but I heard they treat homosexual badly. That's not cool....

me: hahaha...you are one to talk....what if Obama is gay?

Foreign friend: well, apparently he's not...

me: I don't know much about leader...but the last time some people brought up the issue that he is a muslim...the whole nation goes crazy....it's so bad that the conspiracy theorist even claim that obama is terrorist friendly....

Foreign friend: but terrorist is bad...being a homo doesn't hurt anyone....

me: it's a matter of perception...Obama being muslim doesn't hurt anyone...and a muslim does not make a terrorist...so why the hassle over something irrelevant?

Foreign friend: But Obama wasn't being punished by the law...heard that one of your country's opposition leader is indicted for being gay...go on trial because he is a homo...it is absurd....

me: for your information, he is not charged for being gay...he's charged for sodomy....sodomy is a crime so the charge is legit...however he was acquitted....so he is a free man at the moment we speak...speaking of gay...I never heard anything about any of your politician openly being gay...

Foreign friend: there are lots of them...but people don't bother much....

me: between gay, black and woman....which one would you choose to be the president?

Foreign friend: it's anybody's game...as long as they knew what they are doing..so are you homophobic?

me: I've got lots of homo friends....although I'm not very fond of the same sex relationship....but what they are doing between the four walls is none of my concern....

Foreign friend: so about the protest...since you mention about wall street...what happen to your country? Is it the same with what happen to Greece?

me: to be sure...i don't know whether my country will walk down the same path with Greece...but the demand from the citizen itself...probably might lead us to the same path...

Foreign friend: why?

me: For example, they want the tertiary education to be free...

Foreign friend: there's nothing wrong with that...so what's wrong?

me: private university will close their business...and only the gifted will be given a chance to enter the University.....the country is not able to support just about anyone....so the requirement to enter the university will be even stricter than before...

Foreign friend: Ain't it a good thing? so later only the gifted can enter the university...

me: but by doing so, won't we deny the other non excellent's right to study at the tertiary level...they deserve the second chance...but the money won't be enough to support everyone...

Foreign friend: so you think they should pay for their tertiary level....

me: education for elementary school and high school are already given for free for the younger generation...been wanting the same privilege after going to the University is absurd....purely selfish...i don't think it's a good idea...back in those days when studying at tertiary level was more like an option than a must...it's more like exclusivity only certain people gifted enough to receive...people pay a high price for it...therefore the product from the tertiary level in those days were able to excel far better than the product produced today...nowadays...study in tertiary level is a must and almost 70 % high school leaver further their study upwards.... the exclusivity is already gone...we have private university for those who willing to pay for overpriced education....and public university with a loan provided....to demolish all these and hit the reset button....it's craziness....to make it free for everyone...it's utter bollocks.... just look at Saudi Arabia....the youngsters were given fund and financial support to further their study...end up loitering and wasting their time doing nothing...not because there is a higher case of unemployment...but the fact they get things easy....why work for the job with the meager salary when you can get much more just sitting at home and wait for the royalty check from the government that coming from the oil....as the consequence.....the workforce in their country are mostly dominated by the foreign worker....talking about brain drain and stuff...it's the perfect example of soon to be depleted country...Malaysia is going towards this direction....little by little....the citizens start to argue why they didn't get royalty from the selling of the oil...but they don't see those royalty goes in the form of subsidy....so receiving too much when they do so little...i think it is injustice to the country and the next generation itself....

Foreign friend: Hmm...about the protest, do they also fight for freedom of speech and freedom mind?...

me: partially....but i can assure you...that's not the case...from my POV...it's all comes down to money...the greed, the corruption...the Malaysian are just mad...because the government doesn't want to share with them,... they suspected the government is busy squeezing every penny....and rob them blind...

Foreign friend: But they say the political arena in your country is immature compare to other country like Indonesia...they keep changing ruler.

me: It might be a bit immature...but what justify maturity?....if you keep changing leader just like Indonesia or the USA itself...does it change much? a new leader...a new policy...take 4 years..the policy is still half-cooked...the leader change...the damage is done...the baggage is placed on the new leader to take over...another carpet installed to sweep the dirt under....go on and on and on...it's like a vicious cycle that can't be stopped....so why take the risk....and talking about political maturity....Singapore has it worse...the opposition in Malaysia is way luckier than the opposition in Singapore.... at least their voice are heard loud enough...they can use their own media without being restricted....look at the Singapore....i mean, does the opposition ever exist? does that mean the ruler party is very good that the opposition has nothing to protest about? lame isn't it.....they have as much the skeleton in the closet as any other politician in the world....the difference is...they legalize it so it wouldn't be wrong....they are good at judging and sizing up things...even their neighbors' policies...but refuse to look in the mirror once in a while....

Foreign friend: So is it true your country does lead to bankruptcy...?

me: It's funny to think that the country with oil will bankrupt any sooner than 100 years unless it is a case of poor management....

Foreign friend: so you say they are protesting about how the country is poorly managed...

me: it should be...

Foreign friend: it's a good thing, why don't you join them?

me: I just don't think wasting my time shouting when no one is listening is a great idea...just look what had happened at Tahrir square....it reaches the never ending polemic...who wins in the end?....the youth in revolt...or just another scumbag opposition politician...it sucks when young minds are being used as a political pawn....having both seen the side of the ruler and the opposition....i find even if I take part in the protest...nothing good will come of it...just like you that have to choose between republican and democrat....it's a never ending story...whoever wins...the citizen will be the loser...

Foreign friend: but at least they are doing something, so what is wrong with that...?

me: romanticism of justice is beautiful ideally...but it must have a long term planning and executed thoroughly....this protest is so random that I don't think those who start it has any idea what to do next, they just appeal to the masses responses and moving from there....the next big question is if this protest a success, what's next?

Foreign friend: You have oil, so your country will be okay...let's the youth experiment a bit....

me: yeah...hahaha....unless your president decides to invade us.....you guys are suckers for oil...

Foreign friend: Ouch...that hurt....hahahaha....we are not that bad.....

me: no offence, but i'm getting tired of this Al-Qaeda thingy.....I thought with Osama's death....thing will resolve itself....but it's highly unlikely....now i heard USA is launching a drone strike to Yemen...in search for the Al-Qaeda....how much longer will this go on?

Foreign friend: Is that so? I have no idea....it's a news to me....

me: I watched Al-Jazeera last night....

Foreign friend: you believe that crap?

me: You believe the real Al-Qaeda exist?

Foreign friend: Who knows...

me: Yeah...who knows..... OK got to go....talk to you later...gotta watch the idiot box....my favorite series is about to start.

Foreign friend: Chiaw...

me: Chiaw...

what does internet think about our leader???

While websurfing...I stumble across this website http://www.whatdoestheinternetthink.net/....this website enable you to ask questions just in case you are wondering about something...and it will give you the result by telling you whether the subject is popular or likable based on the hit that they find on the internet...so i begin to insert our political figure one by one....guess what....below are my findings...
there are two political figures whom are very likable in Malaysia...one is retired from the arena...and the other one...i have no idea when is he going to retire...here i give you my findings....Tun Mahathir and Karpal Singh share their throne as people's favorite....

our ex PM is still People's favorite so far

Karpal singh is not bad either

Following their step is

Quite good for a new blood

Next in line is our beloved PM...

People still trust him i suppose

The DAP leader is one step under the PM

surprisingly Lim Guan Eng get more love than him

followed by khairy jamaludin...the new blood in UMNO

for a new blood..hmm not bad...

and this make me laugh a little bit....I thought this person would certainly get 100% love from the people....but  not this time I guess....

Guess Anuar has to work extra harder since people are starting to doubt him even more....

Last but not least...the two PAS leader... apparently doesn't make enough impression from the people...I try to type and retype their name using different version, their full name, their nick name...their position....unfortunately i can't get even one hit.....so Tok Guru and Ustaz Hadi...doesn't even make to the list...better luck next time.....i guess

Well this is just for fun....it has no credential whatsoever....but it nice to see...how Internet think of our political leader...at least...on the Internet...we do know where these people stand.....

tengok diri di cermin....dan fikir...

sape yg knal aku mase skolah aku tau la perangai sewel aku dulu yg xsemenggah dan hampeh...tp masuk je U..aku terus sedar diri...pe lagi yg jd penjamin biasiswa aku dua2 pakcik sendiri....ade anak bini..sebab xnk life diorg screwed up pasal aku...aku pun control perangai aku...bukan sket klu nk byr balik if tetibe aku langgar kontrak...family aku bukan orang kaya...lagipun aku tau aku belajar guna duit rakyat...nih bile dh kerja...walaupun ramai orang xpercaya budak cam aku bley jd cikgu....walaupun aku bising2...n xpuas ati dgn orang atasan...aku tetap wat kerja mcm biase...xde terpikir kat vandalized bilik guru ke, bilik gb ke...cos sgt ximmature.....n sgt bodo...bg aku la...ko nak bising satu dunia pun...tu hak ko...janji tanggungjawab ko...ko mesti laksanakan...kalau belajar...prioriti ko belajar...itu amanah yg ko kena pikul dgn duit rakyat yg ko makan...klu kerja, ko kerja betul2...so kalau ko xjalankan amanah, ko pun same corrupt gak...jd layak ke ko nak tuduh orang lain corrupt bila ko sendri corrupt????nih aku bising2 pasal org atasan neh....macam lah bley mengubah keadaan...nk x nk..kite yg kena ubah diri kita....dunia xberputar di sekeliling kita...

nape budak blajar oversea bley berpolitik tp kita xbley?

this is what we called loophole...and UMNO is good at manipulating it coz kat obersea...government diorg xde akta AUKU...akta AUKU cume digunapakai dalam negara je..untuk IPTA dan IPTS dibawah kementerian pengajian tinggi di Malaysia...so tu yg menteri dok sebok2 g sane..g sini....xbley wat kat malaysia la katekan...plus everybody knows..they are d elites...balik sini xdak kerja cikai2 dah...serap masuk ke pemandu la, penggerak la..pekida la...hoho..lawak je...starting gaji je dh puluhan ribu...golongan marhain mcm kite neh...xdak chance la...bla bla bla..anak2 VIP la katekan..hohoho...tp bukan UMNO je yg wat camneh...the opposition pun same....cume care lain2....umno gune duit...pembangkang gune idealism..heavenism..and...equalitism..which are full of shits juga...so xbley la nk kutuk ameno je kan...pembangkang pun sama level je...bak kate my recently retired government servant aunt....corruption bukan dalam bentuk duit je...tp ability to abuse your influence and power for self benefit....so as a conclusion...nk freedom for politics.....jom blajar kt oversea...shit...too late for me....result spm xdpt straight A's....and demn...mak bapak aku xkaya, xmampu nk fund aku blajar oversea.....sigh....
but then again...politik time belajar xpenting dowh...aku de dua sijil perwakilan pelajar...xmembantu karier aku langsung....last2 dok perap dlm file jer.....dulu sebelum dpt jawatan.aku penuh dgn idealism...lepas dpt....huh.....tipu rrr klu aku xabuse akunyer position dulu kan....cheh...mcm penting je jawatan aku....tp dpt la tampung sponsor certain2 event yg batch aku anjurkan dulu....tu blom ag bab nk tolong member or orang atasan bg contract supply brg2...see...when you have power...it's easy to be corrupted....cam mase jd class rep....diri sendri ponteng huhuhu...tp tulis datang gak...hohohoho....so skang neh...klu orang suh aku bg satu juta pun aku xnk dah masuk politik..sumpah aku serik.....makan sumpah seranah orang je beb....blom masuk ag bab kena fitnah....taubat dah aku xnk....aku lebih bahagia jd orang biasa...dah banyak dosa dah...xmau dh nk tambah2 ag....i learnt my lesson d hard way....
Kesimpulannya....kite kdg2 rasa kita layak untuk berpolitik...kita layak jadi ketua....tp sebenarnya....semua tu indah khabar dari rupa....better blajar je la pandai2...kuasai ekonomi macam millionairre2 kat Malaysia nih...n tlg la rakyat ape yg patut..ko nk corrupt...tu urusan ko dgn tuhan...tp ko mesti bg balik pada rakyat...rajin2 baca buku ekonomi walaupun ko xamik course nih mase belajar dulu....jgn jd mcm pakcik ananda...sume bende conquer..dari TV ke kapal terbang .pastu lepak duk LA....bangsa sendri masih ramai merempat tepi jalan...hmmm...lgpun the want who control the world is never a politician...money talks....huh...cube tgk mcm mesir...time kaye raye...sume rakyat ok je...tp bile dah miskin..kerja xde..harga cukai naik...start la demo nk tumbangkan kerajaan....

Don't blame me...blame my illiteracy in Ganu slang.....it's the reason I act like a bimbo...

Semua orang duk pung pang psl ustaz idrus..ustaz best la...ustaz rock la,,sampai zizan yg gedik duk menghimpit aweks mix tu pun suke die la....aku pun bukak le video die...n surrender....seyes...aku nih bodo....dua taung duduk kuantan...and ade best friend org ganu ag...tp aku dok paha pe mende die cakak...seyes....so maafkan aku...wahai rakan2..bukan aku xsuke...tp aku bodo bahasa ganu....sedo dighi hine dine.....dari 10 die cakak...paha nye...due tige je...xpo la....aku tgk ustazah semanis kurma dgn ustaz don je lah...at least aku faham bahasa mereka....hahaha...eleh jgn nk kutuk aku lebey2... korang pun kalau maher zain xkuar lagu melayu...xnk nk beli album kan...kan...kan....macam jiran sebelah umah aku dulu...bukak lagu insyaallah punye kuat...makne habuk xtau....dengar part insya-allah je....bile versi melayu keluar...barulah die dgn anak2nye nyanyi satu lagu....huishh...jahat sungguh mulut aku....so ustaz derus...sempena tahun baru nih...selain goreng gitar...pe kate ustaz diversify sket...guna bahasa universal sket...supaya orang bodoh loghat pantai timur mcm saye ni...buley paha ceramah ustaz...ustaz kan rock...musti paham kan......

just curious...hohoho....

xpaham...pe beza dua neh:

1) demokrasi...ciptaan orang amerika yg kapir...alasan menggunakan demokrasi...demokrasi xmemudaratkan dan kalau ia boleh digunakan untuk mengelak pemimpin yang zalim...why not...

2) civil law...ciptaan orang kapir gak...walaupun civil law xmemudaratkan, haram ikut..kite de hukum hudud....hukum hudud sebaik-baik hukum...

So bley ke kite amik satu dan tolak satu lagi....mcm hipokrit jer.....hohohohoho....

3) klu ikut hukum hudud...kalau kereta kena saman polis..or orang buang sampah merata-rata (seyes ramai orang Malaysia perangai jijik macam neh) camne hukumnye yer...(nih bukan buat lawak atau menganjing ye...aku memang curious nk tau)...arghhh...serabut...

4) and what is the punishment for corruption according to the Hudud law?...

ps: just read a website about how to deal with the corrupt leader...and here are the excerpt...

Fighting A Corrupt Muslim Ruler

If an Imam or Amir is corrupted he should first be given a call to submission in private, or possibly in public if his evil deeds were done in public. If he does not turn away from his evil deeds, he should be overthrown or removed from position. However, in the process of removing him from position, he should not be physically fought, such as waging war with weapons. This is because the ruler is still Muslim, and the Muslims are not to attack or kill another Muslim. If, however, the Muslim leader or ruler completely abandons his salaat, he nullifies his Islam and can be fought if necessary. (However, to prove this, it would take an Islamic court or similar situation in which the person could defend themselves against all accusations).  Umm Salamah (RA) narrated Rasulullah (SAW) said: “In the near future there will be Amirs (rulers) and you will like their good deeds and dislike their bad deeds. One who sees through their bad deeds (and tries to prevent their repetition by his hand or through his speech), is absolved from blame, but one who hates their bad deeds (in the heart of his heart, being unable to prevent their recurrence by his hand or his tongue), and is (also) safe (so far as Allah’s wrath is concerned). But one who approves of their bad deeds and imitates them is spiritually ruined.” People asked (Rasulullah (SAW)): “Shouldn’t we fight against them?” Rasulullah (SAW) replied: “No, as long as they say their prayers.” (Sahih Muslim)...

So the corrupt leader is not punishable by death...it's between him and Allah...the worst thing is to remove him from his position...

I believe this law is justifiable....so why I see many of the religious fanatics out there act like they know better....awkward isn't it?....nak bunuh lah...nak ludah la...ewwww...if you really want Hudud law to be implemented...why don't you start acting like it is already implemented and show some good behaviour like how the hudud law practitioners should be....jangan asik tgk porn n masturbate  pastu cakap pasal agama....keji tu....

A day at the lion city...

When i first step my feet at the woodland immigration center..I have a little argument with the officer...not really an argument...it just me trying to correct her pronunciation cost me to be treated like a drug mule...I'm not really familiar with Singlish though I'm a big fan of Phua Chu Kang...doesn't mean I can understand every word he says...the story goes like this...when i gave her my passport with the Information form i need to fill before entering Singapore...then she said "write down you vekel number please." dumbfounded..and thinking though I am English literate.there might be some word i just didn't know..humbly..I ask her to repeat her instruction...annoyed...she says the exact same sentence once again...and I still not get it...then she probably lost her patience and she might be thinking that I have bad command in English...she pointing harshly to some column i left blank in the form...and I'm amazed at how the fuck she can be an immigration officer...saying as loud as I can... I said while emphasizing the sounds produced by the word "owh....VE-HI-CLE..."..and seeing my face gives away how amused I am at correcting her pronunciation so with her "i'm constipating" face ..she starts being a bitch and asking me to fill the column...so i told her that I took the bus to come here..then she said....so write the bus number...dafuq....my fault for being so ignorant about the importance of having to remember my bus number....i look at the bus ticket that I hold and ask her nicely..."So..which one is the bus number then?"...She sigh as if I'm really stupid...and said...just write CW1 bla bla...fuck you...you can just tell me earlier without having me to make a fool of myself by scanning trough the ticket...and with a smug on her face...she asks "first time here?" I reply..."yup"...then show me your IC...."what now you need my ic?"...she is being a total bitch...I can't stand it anymore..so I say while looking through my purse for the IC..."So where the fuck is my IC now...biatch biatch biatch" hohoho..she sure doesn't understand what biatch is....after looking at my IC with barely one eye...she said.."ok,you may go"...thinking that this is the normal procedure and I'm just overreacted...then I saw all my friends has finished with the procedure even faster and they ask me what's wrong...I told them what happened...and they said...we left the column blank and nothing happened...and they didn't even want to see our IC....OMG I knew it...she just want to get even with me for correcting her...then we use the GPS to find the ZAM ZAM restaurant...we manage to find the place although the Guna Pun Sesat that i bring doesn't help much...it's quite cloudy..so it's kinda hard to get the satellite signal. Reaching there, I'm looking forward to eat the murtabak singapore...the restaurant is quite crowded with people...and we are really hungry due to the walk...waited for more than half an hour...i still didn't get my Milo Dinasour....whereas the other couple beside us who came later than us...got all their drinks before us....nearly one hour..no sign of my drinks..and not even the single hint of the food we ordered will arrive soon..and I realize...I'm not gonna waste my time waiting when I can utilize the time wasted to explore the city...so we canceled the order and get out of there only to realize...there is another branch which is less crowded than the previous....at the same side of the road...but being irrationally hungry and i don't want to fall for the same trick twice...i choose to eat at another restaurant...a bit expensive but the service is way better.....after eating and doing sight seeing we took the MRT to Marina bay...quite a nice hangout spot for yuppies...the journey with the MRT is quite nice...it works efficiently and we get to have our one dollar back...for every ticket we purchased, there will be a one dollar deposit...n you can have the deposit back after you return the ticket....seriously i did return the ticket not so much because I want my 1 dollar back..but because it amuses me.....Marina bay sand is a big area designed for the rich to spend..i do think it is even bigger than Pavillion..correct me if I'm wrong..coz the last time I check..I'm not one of the elites who shop there...so i have less knowledge about exclusive shopping places..but it's not a crime to window shop..and window shopping is enough to make me feel better....After spending some time there, we moved to Orchard Road....or so called the lion city Sg Wang....after some shopping...we go back to Arab street to fill our tummy with the so called best murtabak in Singapore...at the other branch...and it is not disappointing...it tasted quite good and affordable..8 dollar for the large sized murtabak to be eaten by four....so the journey is completed...n i feel satisfied....

Things i learnt from this visit.....most of the time the public transport such as MRT and bus users have their focus on the their I-phone and their I-pad....it shatters my perception about Singaporean being the south east asia japanese....most of them watch video with those...few or none i see reading something..or they might be reading e-book...but must have overlooked it...it makes me thing about generation Y...the generation who's at the receiving end.....when life outside the door doesn't mean much than life inside the tiny boxes...the tiny boxes provide more exposure and information more than a real life could give...and I start to feel overwhelmingly claustrophobic...my friends said that a trip to Singapore reminds them of the movie "In time" where everyone is in a hurry...even the Singaporean drivers drive like they can't hold their pee anymore.screw the speed limit...screw the no left turn sign,.no wonder when they cross the border all hell broke lose...I can bet those who dare to jaywalk will find themselves in the hospital bed sooner than they expected....i see some citizen break the rules although there is possibility of being fined...i see some litters hidden beneath some crook and corner...after all...they just human...they are not a robot designed to function properly as the government wants them to be.....overall...it's a good experience...many things learnt...many things discovered...it is indeed a good journey...

I'm a muslim just like you...but each of us has different views...

You ask me why I didn't put my religion of my FB...you ask me am I ashamed of my religion....and i would say it's not for you to judge...coz between me and God...though I might not be the pious type...I did believe Allah exist...and I certainly knows Allah is the most merciful...but knowing that even being Muslim.. people still killing their brothers, abusing the law and make them ridiculous, act holier than thou in the name of god when everybody knows they are liars... Islam has become another mainstraim religion like the others. i believe Allah give me brain to think...although i did not utilize it well..coz sometimes I act shameless, unscared of the almighty...coz to err is human and to forgive is God.....i have darker side of me that I'm aware of it's existence...and I keep questioning myself when would I get the light? When would I get to believe without having a doubt...coz being hypocrite and follow the masses is easy...it makes your life easier....although your heart knows how messed up it is to wake up knowing that you have to lie as if you understand everything though you don't...i still keep asking why? and some religious people says that too much questioning is the root of the devil just like the israel nation used to keep questioning Moses why for everything. But if you don't understand it,how can you start believing???
So if being rebellious and deny the rules imposed on me cost me a banishment from society..so be it....coz I know deep inside I'm a muslim, i utter the syahadah....and Allah knows that...I still looking for the light...though I know I'm the lucky one coz I was born a Muslim...but the Nurr...didn't come handy in a package when I was born....I know too much but I understand too little..and everyone is so keen to judge, some look forward to give lectures....but few try to understand and able to erase the doubt I have in mind...coz being a muslim doesn't stop you from being a moron...but you can easily use religion as the barricade to save you from acting like a mindless jerk....I know there is more to life than this...but i still can't find my peace...so can you please for a while be a good muslim and stop judging me....coz that's not what a good muslim does to the lost soul...good muslim empathize with them and try as best as they could to show good moral behaviour and persuade people that Islam is the most beautiful thing...so disillusion people like me will start believing again...tq...

kenape aku speaking english? (haha....sekali rojak aku bg...maklumlah...ade yg xphm klu aku tulis english sepenuhnye)

ade orang kate....menyampah lak amy neh asik speaking je.....padahal hidung penyek je.....perasan omputih....kalau nk jawapan kerek dari aku...aku jawab camni...ade aku kisah....ko jeles kan xpandai speaking...cakap omputih tergagap2...so ko menyampahlah aku speaking.....

tp kalau cara berhemahnye aku kata macam neh....aku speaking sebab itu kerja aku...aku ajar budak bi...bayangkan kalau aku xpractise english aku....camne aku nak masuk kelas and ajar budak2 bahasa inggeris....amanah tu.....aku cikgu bi....so grammar kena jaga,pronounciation kene jaga..it's the same dgn cikgu bm.imagine tetibe cikgu yg ajar bm...masuk kelas tapi cakap bahasa pasar....wak lu sane....ade mak kisah sini....xbley terima kan....budak2 mesti cakap...pe cikgu neh...cakap mcm budak ribena...macam tu la gak cikgu bi....klu tetibe masuk kelas tp speaking ala2 go straight don't belok2....murid2 pun xpercaya kt cikgu......

ade pe aku guna bahasa melayu sebagai medium....bukan le bodoh sangat or belagak sangat sampai xrela guna bahasa melayu....tp bilingual individual biasenye buat code switching....sebab vocab list dalam kepala otak dah bercampur.....so main tangkap mane yg ingat je......so kadang2 tu yg jd rojak tu...buka sengaja...n bukan xrespect bahasa melayu...tp dah terbiasa....habit formation...mcm ustazah kt sekolah aku dulu..kadang melatah keluar bahasa arab..marah budak pun dalam bahasa arab la....tu baru bilingual...cube yg multilingual...lg susah nk trace vocab list.....bab2 neh orang unilingual memang rase xbest....coz diorg xpaham.....kerana mereka cuma tahu satu bahasa...n bila orang xguna bahasa yg dia tahu....mulalah tuduh macam2...mulalah kate eleh minah ni...budget best lak nak speaking2...pastu perli2...omputih la sangat...bahasa kafirun tu ko sanjung2....pe kate belajar...bukan susah...xyah la nk judge org lupe diri ke...ape ke.....xdela ko lari sebatu bile tourist tanye direction......xdela nnt ko melolong bile anak2 ko xbley compete dgn kawan2 bilingual n multilingual diorg....pastu salahkan sistem pendidikan bile anak xachieve......suroh mansuh program tu...program neh....sedangkan anak orang lain...mencanak2 naik keputusannya....

ingatlah, bahasa itu kuasa...bahasa itu jambatan untuk ke dunia luar.....ketaksuban dengan bahasa sendiri dan memperlekehkan bahasa lain sama macam duduk bawah tempurung....memang selesa dalam tu....tapi sampai bila...org luar ramai belajar bahasa melayu supaya boleh berkomunikasi dengan baik...sebab diorang tahu kepentingan belajar bahasa lain selain bahasa sendiri....kita pula dok bangga2 omputih tu cakap bahasa melayu la....duhhhh.....

Bahasa melayu tu bagus dan cantik...tp xde ape yang sempurna di dunia ni.....cube tanya penggiat bahasa melayu sendiri.....adakah dia unilinggual or bilinggual or multilinggual.....cube tanye a samad said...die pandai speaking orang putih x? prof ungku aziz...mencintai bahasa dan menguasai bahasa tu xsama....lain sama sekali....bak kata picasso....learn the rules before breaking it.......you blajar pandai2 sampai lebam...baru pk....nk guna atau x....nk ikut atau x....sekurang2nya kita ada pilihan....daripada xtau langsung...pastu dok pandang2 select kt orang....not nice....

So...lu pikirla sendri......

things i learn from my furry housemates....(more like my furry bosses)

My shiny black sweetheart.....Tam tam.

This is Tam Tam.....he might look scary...but underneath he is the most largehearted creature that i knew....unlike other male cats who treats stranger kittens with defiance and being violent.. Tam Tam loves to play with them...give them his food..sleep with them..and sometimes let them play on him....and this cat thinks that every people is a good person....he is not scared of people and he will go running to people to greet them....his naive attitude make me thinks that sometimes in life...though it's hard....we must believe in GOOD.....Tam Tam is also softhearted and love me the most...if i have to go somewhere and leave him with my sister....he refuses to eat anything.....sometimes it goes on for three or four days....he makes me believe that there is a genuine love in this world....and the fact that my cat misses that much makes me happy......the best part about him...he is my manual alarm clock.....every morning at 5.30 am sharp....he always make sure to wake me up.......using his wet nose to tickle me......even on SUNDAY.....Damn!!!!......coz 5.30 am is their breakfast time.....

My stripy hero...Mon Mon

Currently he is suffering from penyakit batu karang.....so he has problem to urinate.....sometimes due to the pain he often resorts to urinate on something soft and cool...like worn clothes, mattress, pillow, blanket and sometimes newspapers...it's kinda hard at first.....coz you have to make sure that there is no clothing or anything like that left unattended on the floor. and to keep the blanket, pillow and mattress in the closet or in the closed room after using them....so...bit by bit...i become quite organized..if before..i never bother to tidy up the bed after waking up...lately...i tidy them up...and put them in the room before going off to school..since i live alone...i usually sleep in front of the tv in the living room..my bed in the bedroom is just for display purposes.....Then i teach him to pee in the toilet....since he cannot use the litter due to infection.....it's takes a lot of effort for my part.....luckily..now he's toilet trained....but i still have to clean up the mess in the toilet....the down part of having a pet...my sis once asked me "if you keep cleaning his poop everyday...how do you able to eat? why don't you let him die naturally...why waste money on medication and stuff".....so i question her back "how can you eat if you keep cleaning your baby's poop everyday? why do you take her to the clinic when she's sick?"....it's the same rule....i raise him since he was little...i'm not going to abandon him just because he is sick.....you don't abandon something you love no matter how hard it is....Mon Mon has his good side too....he's the patient of them all....during the meals...although he is hungry, he always wait for Tam Tam and Cen Cen to finish eating first....he will wait patiently while looking at the other two eating.... usually when feeding them biscuits...i give them separate bowl....so they can eat comfortably......but if there are some special treats...means they have to share.....so Mon Mon will sit and wait for the two to finish eating....

pics of them eating together.......

the cheeky princess Cen Cen

This cheeky brat always makes my day...being the only girl, she is a bit naughty and love to explore new things....do not ever leave any thing open such as closet, drawer, bag...coz she will get in there and occupy the place like nobody business....she is the cleverest of the three....My mom said she does act like me....she does have my traits in her...my bitchiness...my nonchalant attitude, my ade aku kisah attitude and my snobbish  towards people attitude.....unlike Tam Tam who love people...cen cen does not fond of people....but whenever i got sick....she will sit beside me watching me with her puzzled face...as if trying to ask me what can she do to ease my pain.....when the pain getting real bad and i cried several times in front of her,she seems affected by it.....she is sensitive to emotion around her......and try to comfort me as best as she could by snuggling to me....though she may look unaffected but she is affected...only she doesn't show it much....

Although sometimes it's hard to make people understand how we feel towards our pets....but eventually they will see...keeping pets is not a waste of time....keeping pets change me...for better or worse....i did change.....i become more patient, i become more responsible, i learn to commit.....i learn to organize things...i do lots of cleaning than i normally do......though not much...but i believe something inside me has change....so love your pet.....coz they love you too....as long as you feed them....;p

My darlings at the moment......

ulama vs pemimpin

Yep....aku nih bukan golongan orang alim dan xde kepentingan dalam mana2 parti politik...tapi aku sangat2 ingin mencurahkan pendapat aku yang x seberapa ni tentang isu ini.....Kat Malaysia nih....para ulama berlumba-lumba nak jd pemimpin....aku teringat kisah2 yang aku baca dulu...bila ulama sampai di ugut bunuh kerana xmahu mengisi jawatan dalam kerajaan....sgt2 ironi dengan apa yang berlaku sekarang.....Ulama dahulu sangat berani menegur kepincangan pemimpin tetapi sangat takut untuk jadi pemimpin kerana diorang tahu...yang tugas pemimpin itu sangat berat.....cukuplah sekadar menegur cacat cela supaya boleh dibaiki kecelaannya....Ulama zaman sekarang ini pula berfikiran lain..."kalau kerajaan xbetul..biar aku je yang jadi pemimpin....aku lebih layak..."

Ye..memang pada zaman dahulu segala ceramah, segala majlis ilmu, segala mesyuarat pimpinan, mesyuarat ekonomi di buat di masjid....masjid dan surau lah pusat ekonomi dan informasi orang2 islam.....dan masa berlalu....pemimpin mula bermesyuarat di balai rong seri dgn pegawai2 dan penasihat2 agama mereka....masjid masih lagi pusat komuniti...tetapi hal2 ekonomi, penguatkuasaan undang-undang dan pentadbiran sudah pindah ke istana.....kenapa???? selepas nabi wafat...penggantinya adalah sahabat2 baginda...bila kebanyakannya sudah tiada....umat berpecah....dalam masa xsampai suku abad..inikan kita yang sudah 1 kurun lebih berlalu selepas kewafatan nabi..sedangkan saidina Osman Al-Affan pun kena assasinate....pewaris2 darah daging nabi menerima nasib yang sama....selepas itu bermula la pemerintahan monarki dalam islam dari keturunan bani Abas hingga rampasan kuasa ke keturunan bani Muawiyah...dan sampai ke kegemilangan turki uthmaniah (ottoman)...setandingkah mereka ini dengan nabi? tentu tidak...tetapi jahat kah mereka ini atau tidak layakkah mereka memimpin rakyat? tidak semua.....ada antara khalifah ini yang memang baik dan adil walaupun bukan dari darah daging ulama....

Ulama dulu perlu di cari untuk mendapat tunjuk ajar...ada sesetengahnya duduk bersembunyi jauh dari masyarakat....memberi ilmu pada orang yang mecari....ulama sekarang....walaupun xsemua begitu , xpayah kita nk cari...dia yang ligat mencari pengikut... semakin tinggi ilmu agama, semakin hebat godaan syaitan terhadap diri mereka...sampai ada yang merasa mereka lah yang terbaik, terpuji dan dicintai tuhan. Orang yang tidak sealiran dilaknati tuhan...Apa beza ulama2 ini dengan Pope dan Rabbi???..Riak dan takbur kerana rasa mereka insan disayangi tuhan dan agama mereka yang terbaik. Ulama dulu menegur pemimpin....halus bahasanya....dalam maksudnya.....tegurnya secara berdepan...tidak di belakang, tidak di dalam blog, tidak di dalam majlis ilmu, sebab sejahat2 pemimpin itu, maruah mereka harus di jaga....lagipun bercerita tentang kesalahan pemimpin n menyampaikan cerita keburukan pemimpin kepada rakyat secara terang-terangan sama je seperti mengumpat...perangai munafiq.....mcm ..abdullah bin Ubai http://www.pinggiranusj.net/t305-awasi-jebak-dari-keturunan-abdullah-bin-ubai-bin-salul......

Ramai ulama yang baik dan dihormati ada dekat Malaysia ni, yang berani, yang cerdik dan berseni kata-katanya.....yang tinggi ilmu agama nya..yang bertauliah....ulama ini yang patut kita sanjung, kita ikut...ulama ini tak akan meminta wang dari kita, tidak meminta kita bersangka buruk pada orang lain...dan tidak menyesatkan kita.Janganlah kita cepat terpedaya dengan ulama segera yang datangnya bersaa pakej parti politik ataupun...ajaran2 yg bertentang dengan ajaran2 yang ada sekarang.....selagi perkara itu tidak memudaratkan...ikut lah....xmati kalau kita x jadi syiah....kita tetap orang islam....

Pemimpin yg jahat itu memanglah nampak jahatnya...ulama yang jahat lebih berbahaya...umpama api dalam sekam....hidup jangan terlalu taksub....

Perbincangan yang bermakna....

Masa aku kat U dulu, aku paling suka bila lecturer wat group discussion...especially if dapat reading materials and derives ko punye understanding from dat....yang pastinya, each person will come out with different interpretation....
lecturer favourite aku adela miss Ong Siaw Kim, Miss Ng Siew mei, Dr Anuar, Mr Lim n Prof Moses...
Miss Ong adelah seorg yg sgt skema dan ketat rules grammarnye selain mempunyai penglihatan yg amat tajam....so klu aku main cucuk2 dgn melissa kat blakang kelas...die bley tahu jenama pen ape yg aku gunakan nk cucuk Melissa tu...tp dgn die ni aku belajar 1 important lesson, you have to learn the rule before you can break it...mcm blajar grammar...ko kena ikut bulat2 beb ape yg ade dlm buku....and bile ko ase dah pro...bley le ko come out the creative license ko utk goreng2 cerita best utk wat journal ke, short story ke, novel ke...so klu ko nk mendalami literature...ko kena la blajar grammar dulu....basic rules...n die suke tembak org jawab soalan die...klu ko xprepare...bersedia utk terjun luar tingkap...so aku kena sentiasa bersiap sedia memberi jawapan dgn reason yg munasabah klu jawapan aku salah.....
Miss Ng plak ajar aku cara nak detect fallacy....kire ape yg die ajar tu jd mantra aku sampai skang...slippery slope, red herring, symphaty appeal, bandwagon, overgeneralisation , personal attack, straw man bla bla bla....adalah element yg masih aku praktikkan bile membaca reading material....so everytime dpt reading material, die akan tanya, tanya, dan tanya lagi....n kitorg akan jawab, jawab dan jawab ag...smpila dpt conclusion yg munasab dan boleh dipakai...
Dr Anuar lak...seorg lecturer yg sgt cool....die sgt observant and sukakan inovasi.....tp klu die ase xbest...die hentam juge....but teguran die xwat aku down...coz cara die kritik sgt subtle...instead of poiting out weaknesess...he gives suggestion for improvement...bile aku pilih lagu My Way (Frank Sinatra) utk budak2, die suro aku tukar coz xsesuai...it might be inspiring n all...but lagu My Way tu utk org yg dah tua...yg umur nak ujung2 dah....n aku accept his critict kerana cara dia yg subtle...n still cakap akunye presentation OK....
Mr Lim...adelah lecturer paling faveret aku....die mmg xskema, hobi die adelah tido time kitorg wat presentation...tp aku xsalahkan die pun...coz mase aku blajar Issuess in science teaching dgn die, classmate aku bantai pakat buat 50+ slide utk powerpoint presentation...kadang2...dgn aku skali pun join tido...slide show terbanyak aku pun masih di bawah 30.aku tau mesti ramai akan cakap...gile bodoh ape wat slide show banyak gitew....tapi itu semua atas dasar creativity n knowledge input yg nak disampaikan...n one thing about my science classmate...most of them don't talk rubbish...or copy n paste dari internet....most of them know what they are talking about...klu x, kena belasah le dgn mr Lim kalau xdapat jawab soalan die. lagi satu perangai Mr Lim...klu die xtido..die suka menyampuk....walaupun die suke minum teh tarik time kelas....n masuk klas lambat...kalau ko salah bagi fact...ko kena ceramah dgn die...dun pray pray....pronunciation pun kena jaga...salah sebut...terus die betulkan....but the best part about his class....adelah discussion after presentation....normally aku memang kuar jap g beli milo ais kat kafe time nih...time nih...die akan point out sesuatu issue n open discussion...trust me...klu klas nih tiga jam...cuma ade 1 jam utk presentation dan yg selebihnya discussion..(klu ikut schedule awal bley wat sampai 5 presentation) .klu aku xterlalu mengantuk...aku biasenye aku join discussion...well...time neh mmg best gile....mostly classmate aku akan tak this opportunity utk luahkan view diorg...this side or other side or both side....tanpa prejudice...kdg2 sampai perkara yg absurd pun bley keluar..sampai mulut ko asik ternganga..xberkesempatan nak tutup...contohnye...seorg classmate aku yg sgt taksub dgn pegangan jehovahnye...yg tidak membenarkan pengikut pegangan tu menderma darah....mengeluarkan latest finding tentang penciptaan darah palsu sebagai alternative derma darah....or seorg yg lagi pula mengeluarkan kenyataan homosexuality itu sebenarnya bukan kecenderungan seks tetapi part of mental illness (which is true) wlupun org xbley nk terima kenyataan...something out of the norm in not normal (if you can't accept schizophrenia as normal...why the double-standard?) or debate about theory of evolution vs pro creation, about the creation of technology..sape org pertama cipta kapal terbang? are u sure it's wright brothers?....n many more...
Last skali, subject yg aku suka..future English...by Prof Moses...Superb...he's actually clueless with our ability to goreng and menipu die kaw2...kekuatan batch aku tidak terletak pada keskemaan kami....cakap pasal skema...kami memang hancur lebur....tp kekuatan kami adalah pada getting the jobs done..wlupun ade loophole kat situ...n kitorg pun mmg agak pemalas orgnya...tp dgn berkat didikan lecturer2 kitorg sebelum nih...menyebabkan bakat menggoreng itu keluar seperti air dari mulut kitorang...we can make out gold comes from shit...we can make a piece of KFC phamplet yg asalnya nak usha ape nk g makan jap ag kat KFC as an important article in the discussion about Global media.....Yes we can...bak kempen Barrack Obama....Prof Moses...though how oblivious he is with his surrounding...but when he open his mouth...he never cease to amaze me...suke bercakap tentang daily experience n contact dgn surrounding die...n aku xrase bosan pun...walaupun kdg2 aku suke merepek dalam kelas die...n kadang2 aku tido...kalau awal pagi je la...kelas die asik pukul 8 je dulu...tension I...dah la nak parking kat UM tu seksa gile...
N lepas aku kerja ni, aku sangat rindu moment2 berdiskusi dgn kawan2...xsemestinya sebulu....or sependapat..but dgn discussion yg sihat dan xberat sebelah (melihat dari segala aspek, bukan mengikut kuantiti penyokong, bukan mengikut emosi semasa, but berdasarkan pandangan dari mata seorang individual yg berbeza berdasarkan fakta yg tersedia)....we come to the conclusion....that's why...klu nk wat assignment, selalula bg member bace draft kamu...supaya klu ade proofreader....kita bley tahu ape pendapat org lain tentang hasil kerja kita...
Dah kerja ni, aku sentiasa dalam dilema utk bertanya...aku nih jenis xpaham...aku akan tanya lebih2 sampai lebam...but budaya tempat kerja aku jenis...aku bg tau sekali..pastu pandai2 kau la...so bile aku screw up dlm kerja aku...teruk la aku kena hentam...walaupun kerja yg aku buat xde kena-mengena dgn tugas aku mengajar anak bangsa...contohnye...buat pamplet utk hari guru, hari kantin, hari kanak-kanak, surat jemput VIP itu, VIP ini...minit mesyuarat...bla bla bla.....aku rase malu asik nk singgah meja cikgu BM tanye die betul x ayat aku nih, formal ke x bahasa yang aku guna ni.....n then org atasan aku yg trusting at d same time kurang kebertanggungjawaban...etc...aku bg ketua aku utk proofread report, aku bg assisstant die skali drafting....sume kate ok...aku pun print n edar...pastu kena bancuh....psl ade error...ade yg xtulis nama bapak...n trus cakap aku xcompetent n bodo sombong....yg ketua kt atas aku yg sepatutnye proofread n edit kerja aku buat don't know n suro aku jgn buat kesilapan yg sama lagi.....dun...baik aku xyh wat draft lain kali...inilah jadinya bila xde perbincangan yg bermakna.
Bila time meeting, aku sgt suka bila ada suara2 yg question authority...wlupun hakikatnye diorg pun sama 2x5...tp kat situ kita bley nampak...ada keseimbangan dalam penyampaian dan pengendalian sesuatu isu...mesyuarat adalah medan yg sesuai utk meluahkan rasa tak puas hati at the same time juga medan yg digunakan utk membela diri....di situ perbincangan yg bermakna berlaku....
Perbincangan yg bermakna itu penting bg melahirkan generasi yg faham dan tahu apa yg patut kita tahu dan bukan tahu apa yang kita mahu or org lain mahu kita tahu....semua perkara kat dunia ni bukan setakat black vs white or good vs evil...byk gray area...byk cause n effect yg perlu difahami dan diambil kira...so kekurangan perbincangan yg bermakna boleh menyebabkan kedangkalan otak at the same time, kita akan rasa kita sentiasa betul walaupun kita salah...n kita akan berfikir dan bertindak mengikut emosi.....trust me, the most beautiful thing about Shakespeare is not his work of art...but his way of doing the arts....he left it to us to interpret it and to judge....

To understand the mind and the soul of our neighbor's nation....Indonesia.....from the lay man point of view..

Why and what makes them hate us so much?????

It all started with the confrontation between Malaysia and Indonesia back in the 1962-1966....to put it simply....Sukarno (the president of Indonesia) at that time hold a grudge due to the creation of Malaysia. Claiming that Malaysia is a British puppet and the formation of Malaysia will increase British control over the Malaya archipelago.Frustrated with Malaysia action to not taking part in the founding of "Maphilindo" and claiming Sarawak and Sabah as part of the Malaysia,Unable to realize his dream of Indonesia raya, holding a grudge. Sukarno decided to pursue with the campaign "Ganyang Malaysia".

So this is where it all started....Malaysia, since the day of it's independence practices constitutional democracy while our neighbor at the early year of independence chose to walk a different path by practicing guided democracy.And what is the different between the two....In Malaysia...yang Dipertuan Agung is the head of the country while prime minister will help with the governing.

Indonesia...being a republic country, they have the president in charge of governing. Back in Sukarno's years of ruling it is widely known that he is a huge fan of communism...n why communism? because unlike other type of practices...communism is sided with the labor and the common people....and for the oppressed nation due to colonization, communism seems like a greater choice...having the absolute freedom to govern the country without intervention from the west.Unlike Malaysia who chose to nurture the diplomatic relationship with the west, Sukarno chose to server the ties completely.

Throughout the independence of Indonesia, the people of that republic had never truly achieved a real freedom...because of a long period of colonization. the post-colonization era is filled with tragic incident. Due to the interfering from the west who sees communism as a threat therefore conspire with Suharto, one of the General during Sukarno era, a coup had taken place and Sukarno is overthrown. Suharto replaced Sukarno as the president and the new era begin. The relationship with the west is mended. The economic condition improving. Communism eroded and replaced by the New Order which the army had taken the center stage...this is the reason why even after Suharto is forced to resign...the army is still a prominent figure and quiet feared in Indonesia.

Due to the recession and the issue of corruption. Suharto is forced to resigned and slapped with corruption charges. Even his family paid the price for it.This is the moment where the real democracy arisen...Indonesian finally has the real chance to speak out, to choose and to give opinion about certain matters. The media finally has a total freedom to do whatever they want to do and write whatever they want to write without the government peaking every second.

Felt cherished with that bless. Their axis now is concentrated on "Reformasi". With hope that Malaysia, will choose to walk the same path, and overthrow the present government by seeing Anwar Ibrahim as their own version of Megawati Sukarnoputri....once again, the hope sank to the bottom of the sea...because Malaysia refused to walk in the same shoes. The fact is loud and clear, the Malaysian has a much capable leader than Indonesia..

Hence, seeing Malaysia as a rebellious little brother, Indonesia started to feel threaten and the old grudge rise again. The Indonesian media, being the culprit behind all the commotion that occurs lately has finally cross the line and become the spark that give birth of Malaysia vs Indonesia Confrontation part 2. Sensationalized the issues of between Malaysia and Indonesia, twisted every detail until the truth and the lies intertwine, with the support of their government to evade the truth about their weakness in administration, blinded by false patriotism....the hatred and the hate towards Malaysia has born. But this heat of  hatred only felt strongly at the Java island where the capital city of Jakarta takes place.And not the whole nation.

These extreme groups comprises of the schools teenagers and the university students: the pawns which mind are easily manipulated, the academician and politician with ulterior motives, the innocents bystanders whose mind are blinded by phony patriotism and  the biased media greedy to make money have nurtured the hatred towards the whole Indonesian nation. The Indonesian nation is a nation full of pride and patriotism. These elements are what make they overlook the real issue that they are suffering which are poverty and incapable current leadership. The ongoing difficult life that they undergo while the rebellious little brother citizen live in prosperity help in inducing low self-esteem inside them.

Claiming that Malaysian are showy people and culture-stealing nation without even thinking that more than quarter of Malaysian citizen ancestors are originally came from Indonesia. Don' they have the right to practice their own culture? Is it fair for the Malaysian citizen?

If Malaysia is so much at fault with stealing Indonesia culture in order to promote Malaysia at the eyes of the world. Why don't the Indonesia administration do something to promote their culture outside?The lack of or might be non-existence promotion of Indonesian culture is the real issue here. No effort taken to nourish and introduce their own culture to the outside world.

The freedom to use the internet without restriction from their government is also one of the reason things getting worse. Indonesia is the largest country in South East Asia. Their population outnumbered Malaysia population with big number. Therefore, they have the power to manipulate the internet to create propaganda. Imagine one people spreading false information to create chaos between Malaysia and Indonesia, the multiply in by millions....and multiply again by millions...each day and every day.....the non-existence issue will become a bigger issues that will surely sure shake the good relationship between Malaysia and Indonesia.

When talking about Indonesia. People will have the concept of inept leadership where corruption takes a center stage, the Indonesia labor migration to other country because of the lack of job opportunity or the cheap pay given to the labor, the inability of the leader to get in control of it's provinces  and the feud with the separatist (remember Irian, East Timor and Acheh?). But, failing to take a closer look at this matter, the Indonesia government trying to divert the focus to Ambalat. Claiming that Malaysia is once again, After the joining of  Borneo into Malaysia, is stealing the land of Indonesia little by little. If they so much lack of capability to govern such a big country, why do they still insist on keeping them?

Then again....Indonesia as a nation full of pride. The pride that they hold on to is the weapon that drove them to the ground. Malaysian should keep their mouth shut and ears deaf from the provocation by made Indonesia. Fighting back or try to rationalize with people who unable to think rationally is worthless. If the Malaysian learn not to be provoked easily and keep mumming...the noise will stop...

One day, the Indonesian will realize that they are barking at the wrong tree...and they will understand that the true meaning of freedom is not only restricted to freedom of speech, they should begin to see that the day when they able to get the job without having to pay someone, when they able to walk into the prestigious shopping mall with being classed or stopped by the security guard, that the big restaurants are not only for the elites, where everyone get the privilege of free education and healthcare system...and that is the time they can hold on to their pride without having to be looked down by other nation.

n that's funny

I'm known as a girl with "a slap to a face tongue"....i'm not fond of giving nasty remarks but i'm a big fan of cynicism...i have the ability to change even the sweetest moment into a dark comedy....yep...dark comedy is my ultimate favorite genre....
it happens a lot...you know when i say nice things about people, or the situation....my mates will look at me with the eager eyes....looking forward for a twist in my statement....sort of like  when i say "she is pretty" or "it's not that bad" there will be a pause....n people start paying attention....waiting for what will come next...n if i just stop there....they will look at me with disbelief....with the face that said "you should say more....we know it....there must be more..."...and i say "what...can't I just be innocent once in a while.....???"
My besties are familiar wit this side of me....so if they are willing to hear the truth....i would be more than open my mouth to vomit it....I'm not good at giving advice....but i could give you the real picture of your situation...i won't say nice words to make you happy...i will give the reality in front of you n i make fun of it....yep...make fun of it....
n why wud i do dat????....coz 4 god sake.....i'm tired of seeing people lie to themselves n asking other people what they should do...when they don't bother to listen...n they know fully well...what they want is stay stuck with the problem...coz making decision will get them hurt.....by making decision they have to move on...they have to start anew...they have to begin from zero again....it's ugly...see...that's why people don't bother with the truth...coz they have gone to far....n after all the wasted efforts...they can't just stop n start over....it's easier to be the victim than try to find the solution...it's easier to dwell in their misfortune rather than move on with their life...coz people are more afraid of loneliness than useless company.....they are hurting but they don't want to get hurt...don't you think it's funny????
And what's more funny....seeing people lie when there is no reason to lie....with the lame reason "i don't want people talking about me"...wtf is that....don't you think people are dumb that they won't find out the truth....come on...admit it...if you do shitty things...no matter how hard you try, you can't hide it....but if the shitty things you do is not worth hiding....why bother...why make things worse n let people gossiping about you....for example...if your bf give u a car...don't be stupid n tell the world ur daddy give the car to you...u can just smile...n tell people...."it's a secret"....or if u r a second wife, don't go telling people that the reason your husband married you is because he wants a child of his own...coz nobody bothers to know why....if you still expect people will look at you in a brighter light by showing your (lie version) good side....you think wrong....the more lies you give...the more excuses u lay out....the uglier things become....n people will talk even more...
When people are in trouble....or havin a problem wit other people...they always in need of allies to back them up...these people are weak...i always believe...if people mess wit you...somewhere along the line...in the past...you might had screwed with other people...n now the time for reckoning come to your face....but u just can't take it...so b4 you start blaming...why dun u ask yourselves "what is wrong?" before telling a bunch of your friends or selling sad story of your cute little life being ransacked by this or that people....n turn these people into haters just becoz someone screwed your life....why don't u just be strong n face it.fight them your own way..clean up your own mess..why do you think by having people at your side make u right?....they are your friend...of coz they support you no matter how wrong you are.Sometimes the fault is ours...but by having people to support you...it blinds you from noticing it.....
just like Nora Danish blames Fasha Sandha as a husband stealer n a gold digger just becoz Fasha took her husband from her when everybody knows the truth...whether Rizal  belongs to Nora or Fasha....both of them are equally the same....ain't it funny???

erk...kejamnye si B

Perbualan telefon antara A dan B.......

B: Hello A, td ko call ye? sori la xangkat aku tido.....

A: Oh...a'ah td saya call awak?

B:Nape?

A:Saya sedih la B....awak tgh watpe tuh....

B: Tgh tgk movie...

A:Saya nih x ok skang neh...byk masalah saya....

B:.........

A: Macam- macam masalah saya, family saya, kerja saya, kesihatan saya....semua orang xfaham saya...saya xtau dah nk cakap dengan siapa????

B:..........

A: Family saya macam dah xkisah dgn saye, kwn2 tempat kerja pula mcm xsuka saya...dah lah saya asik sakit2 je.....diorg asik2 nak perli saya...

B:.........

A: Saya sedih la B...rasa macam saya ni sorang2...xde sape ambil kisah....bla bla bla......

(lepas 1 jam)

B:...........

A: ok la B....macam dah lame kite cakap.....thanks la sebab dengar saya mengadu ye.

B:Ok....(dalam ati  "damn....movie best dah abis....damn.....credit aku dah abis......sob sob sob.....)

fixing n getting in control

I thought my day as the fixer is over...but when it comes to working environment...the fixing part has come to revisit me...just like a deja vu...I always have the preconception that the adults should be more mature in thinking and judging...but how wrong I am....the same shit happens regardless your age...
The typical mindset of looking for someone to point fingers to, to dump all the responsibility to so as to make their own life easier, the lack of interest of getting things done.....it's the same old craps that I found back in the Uni days....but at this age....it is...capital UGLY.....
Since i like to observe how things done before i get into the picture....I find many things that amuse me..and to see the aged people acting childishly is WOW.....i'm so speechless....and I flashback to back when I started working, i screwed thing up badly....my register book is a total mess, I'm not good at preparing program booklet, n i left my SBPT list unattended until the last minute...to tell the truth I fake the data for the SBOA...damn...i do feel bad...i don't know whether it is due to lack of motivation or I"m just purely busy..but when i get the chance..i attend to it one at a time....it's really freaking difficult...for a lazy ass like me...i wish documents n data never exist....
When it comes to fixing things..n getting things done...I'm natural...i adapt easily..I just love to have everything under control...And I am clueless as to why this habit of fixing things sticks with me..I just hate to see the carefully laid plan screwed up if it could be improved...it's a shame....though I myself is a screwed up case. When people pop me with the question...don't u feel used? why do you put up wit it? i lost for words...coz i'm not seeing myself as a victim...i do have a time when i just throw everything...i do have the lazy spell....but there are times that i just want to work it...to make things possible..to patch the hole on the sinking boat....it's not easy but it's worth it...i do not see myself as a reliable person...but trying my best doesn't hurt...it just me to have a back up....it's not like i'm trying to impress people...i just happen to think quicker...
and how do i learn all these...through experience...n u just know what to expect from people that u work with...utilize their strength n minimize their craps....I'm happy to work with an asshole if he can do his job well, and i won't be frustrated if my partner is a lay backer to the core....that's why professionally I hardly feel frustrated whomever is my working partner...coz I'm the type who would choose my enemy over my friend if it help completed the work....I don't think it's a hypocrisy...i call it surviving...coz in the end...if things blown to pieces...u are to blame...coz you don't work it enough to succeed it...
There are times that I blew it..things that i just couldn't control....just like when the UPSR result for English came out...though it's only decreasing by a mere 7%...it is still going down...those percentages came from my student...I talked to myself..."it's shit Amy..it is your fault..."although people around me trying to make me feel better...it doesn't work...coz it's beyond my control...and I'm out of my comfort zone...therefore I lost the confidence....
and now, thanks to the "trying to fix things up to make it easier", i've become a JU...another field i'm not familiar with...i am agitating...it's hard to be in control of the things you are not familiar with...i know this stuff will take it's toll on me sooner or later...but it's a shame to turn a blind eye from something within your power to fix...n i hope people will get me when they see me doing something that shouldn't be mine to deal with at the first place...unlike other people....it just so not my style seeing other people screwed up and not do anything about it....

apekah pilihan aku?

Ramai orang tanya...dimanakah kedudukan sebenar aku bila masuk bab politik, bab agama, bab bangsa n bab negara. Jawapan aku simple...mcm yg aku tulis kat FB...Apathetic....Ramai org kata, orang mcm aku xde pendirian...coz bg diorg untuk jd org berpendirian kita kena take side...ade aku kisah???
1st of all, klu tanye aku sape yg aku akan undi utk pilihan raya akan datang...sorry...i dun vote for parties...I'm looking at the individual....balik Ampang skang hati aku senang...jalan dah xberlubang2.....tq to ADUN bahagian Chempaka dari parti PAS....n aku sgt happy coz lift kat rumah aku...dua2 lift dah repair...n sgt cantik....tq to KERAJAAN PUSAT dari parti komponen BN....n sape aku nk undi nnt...ko pk sendri la.....
Bg aku...the rule is simple...if leader ko...yg duduk kt atas tu buat kerja betul2...n benefit die mmg dpt kt rakyat...aku sokong....I hate personal agenda....that's why aku xsuke Anwar Ibrahim...duh.....even blind people can see kot....so walaupun die mmg baik gile sekalipun...but once dia jadikan perjuangan dia tu personal...he won't get my vote...
n xkirela opposition or government...dua2 pun ade pro n cons...mcm aku...sbb aku kerja dgn kerajaan...mestilah aku kena sokong kerajaan...but klu opposition come out with something plausible n good...xdela aku condemn....coz kerajaan yg kite ade nih pun bukan maksum..or betul 100%....
Bagi aku...individuality n party is a separate matter...xsemestinya ko dari parti A...ko kene act and react mcm kebanyakan org dari golongan parti A...keberanian bersuara bila tahu ada sesuatu yang salah...that's they key to success...Lgpun dari kelakuan politician sendri pun,kite boleh observe yg die nih org yg macam mana...i mean kalau letak Khairy Jamaluddin, Mukhriz Mahathir n Nurul Izzah dalam satu lain...n push aside korg punye personal sentiment...and study the facts....the real facts about those three's contribution towards our nation...it doesn't take genius to guess it....Korang sendri tahu jawapannya kan?
Bile tgk kat TV...politician guna personal attack...main balas2 serangan...korang tak rasa menyampah ke? Tp masih ada lagi org yang mengikuti benda2 macam ni.Once again, memang la reputasi tu penting....but hilang reputasi kerana hasil kerja yg hampeh berbanding kisah personal ko yg hampeh tu lagi jahanam kot...cthnye...tgk ape jd dekat Tun Abdullah Haji Ahmad Badawi....his reputation is marred due to what people say 'his inability to handle the situation'....
So...bagi aku...klu personal ko baik..tak minum arak...xmain perempuan..xmakan rasuah...tapi ko gagal melaksanakan amanah yg rakyat bagi kat ko...what's the point???? Tapi jgnla pulak kate aku xkisah politician negara aku buat benda2 keji tu....yg salah tetap salah...cume kita kena fikir kenapa kita pilih die...pasal die baik pijak semut xmati or pasal die buat kerja n jaga kebajikan kita sebagai rakyat...
Aku rasa, apa yg kurang dgn kita adalah kemampuan berfikir secara objective...bagus juga semua university mewajibkan course neh sekarang....bagus tindakan kerajaan wat macam nih setelah ramai graduan univertisy menganggur kerana kurang kemahiran mendengar, berkomunikasi dan berfikir....Dari zaman sekolah lagi...CCTS tu jd element penting dalam pembelajaran bagi melahir wholesome citizen....bukan wholesome bread....kita sekarang jarang tanye kenapa n bagaimana....kita lagi suka menerima dan menerima....kita dah malas untuk berfikir...klu boleh di-subkan pemikiran kita...dah lama kita buat....but that's not the right way...aku sendri pun kadang2 pemalas bab fikir-fikir nih....tapi ada mase, kena juga berfikir...baik dan buruk satu keputusan tuh....mcm harga petrol yg nak naik lg nih....hmmm...oleh kerana aku xterjejas sgt...xdela aku melolong kalau minyak naik....dari dulu pun aku gune ron97...n bile ron97 naik arge...aku masih ag pakai ron97....coz aku cume bwk kancil...so berapa sgt la kancil tuh makan minyak....kalau aku isi ron97 dkt shell full tank (rm 40)...seminggu bley tahan....bile pk balik....bile minyak naik...betul ke yg terjejas adelah org berpendapatan rendah....aku waktu berpendapatan rendah dulu (masa belajar), aku naik bas, aku naik LRT...klu naik motor sekalipun...pernah ke full tank smpi rm10 ag???? aku rase yg banyak terjejas adelah org yg mempunyai tangki kereta besar....lu pk la sendri...kereta besar bley beli...minyak mahal banyak bunyik....
Sebenarnya...org bukan takut pasal minyak mahal...tp after effect lepas minyak jd mahal tuh....pas harga minyak naik...mesti harga brg naik....n setiap kali tu la kerajaan jd org bodo....coz sampai sekarang diorg xbley menangani masalah pembekal n peniaga yg menaikkan barang sesuka hati...balik2 denda....klu org2 kaya nih di denda berpuluh2 ribu pun diorg boleh bayar....money is no matter for them...klu bagi denda...esok luse naik lagi la harga gule, minyak,tepung...nak cover duit bayar denda...n rakyat juga jd mangsa....
Sebenarnye jauh di sudut hati, semua rakyat mahukan kerajaan yg effective...takyah g jauh...walaupun aku berapa suka kaedah forced discipline yg kerajaan Singapore pakai...but it works......jarang dgr pemerintah kat selatan sana terlibat dalam kes rasuah....Negara boleh hancur pasal rasuah...kapitalism subur membesar dgn rasuah....Malaysia adalah negara yg semakin berpaksikan kapitalisme....sedikit demi sedikit dah ke arah itu...the rich is getting richer...the poor is getting poorer...berapa ramai la sangat org kita nih yg sanggup buat kerja amal tanpa mengharapkan balasan....klu sebab nak escape byr cukai...ramai la....
So as a conclusion, kita sebagai rakyat...kita kena tahu ape yg kita nak...bukan ape yg org rase kita nak...pasal bangsa, agama dan negara...itu semua dah ada dekat perlembagaan Malaysia...baca dan fahami balik...don't ask pointless question n don't question fixed variables....as long as it still working n won't harm you...why make a fuss???